I’ve been struggling to get my design work done, both at work and at home. It’s too early to say I’m burnt out; I’ve only been doing this as a full-time job since November. I think my biggest concern is a lack of confidence. I used to pride myself on the fact that all my design skills (photoshop, illustrator, HTML and CSS etc) were self-taught. I used to think how clever I must be considering I hadn’t taken a single design course. Yet now these very traits are haunting me. I’m uncertain all the time. I second-guess absolutely everything I do to the point that nothing gets done. It’s crippling me.
I know that this probably isn’t the best practice, blogging about these negative feelings. No one wants to read emotional drivel. But I am not perfect, far from it. And, if anything, don’t people want to know that I am simply human and I go through crap just like everybody else? Or maybe people only want to see that of wonderful famous people, not ordinary people like me.
Well, to keep this brief and close it out, here’s a quote from the Neil deGrasse Tyson AskMeAnything post I’m reading right now:
“The problem, often not discovered until late in life, is that when you look for things in life like love, meaning, motivation, it implies they are sitting behind a tree or under a rock. The most successful people in life recognize, that in life they create their own love, they manufacture their own meaning, they generate their own motivation.
For me, I am driven by two main philosophies, know more today about the world than I knew yesterday. And lessen the suffering of others. You’d be surprised how far that gets you.”
– Neil deGrasse Tyson, on this AMA post on Reddit